Thanks be to GOD! I am beginning to be honest with myself, my Creator, my husband, etc. , for the first time ever! It's terrible and wonderful at the same time. Things that I have resented and thought about my husband are the same about me. I always thought Chad was the one who was private, who only let you in so far, who only showed what he was willing to let be seen, even with me.
He is not the only one. I have been doing the same thing with him and others. Even with GOD Himself .Which is absolutely nuts!To think I can hide anything from Him. And of course, I haven't.
Not at all. But, I have held GOD off. And He is a gentleman, He has given us free will and He will do, take ,or come near more than we allow Him.
But I am sick and tired of being in this prison I have created for myself.I want to be FREE no matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes, no matter how scary or painful it is. NO MORE!!!!!
